United States Coast Guard
I joined the Coast Guard this year. During my time at basic, a company commander from another company molested me. I was at the squad bay alone. I came back from a dental appointment to find that my company was not there. Panic struck cause I knew that my company should have been there and didn’t know what to do. A lone recruit walking around Tracen Cape May looking for her company would have caused me tons of problems. Instead I assumed that they might be outside doing some IT or something and be back soon.
I walked through the male squad bay to the women squad bay. Between the two-squad bays there is a small hallway. I was walking quite fast to the women squad bay. I bumped into a company commander from another company and froze. He had the reputation of being the meanest. My mouth was numb from some dental work and could barely be understood when talked. He asked me why I was running indoors. I apologized. He said that I talk “like a retard.” I explained to him that I just had dental work done and he asked to open my mouth so I did. He put his hands in and said, “You should take care of your teeth more. Having a cavity is lack of self control.” I nodded. He ended up pushing me to the wall unzipping my ODU pants and started to finger me. I did not tell him to stop. I did not run away. I froze and felt that I could see from afar what was happening. With one hand he was fingering me and the other hand he was touching himself. After it was all done he put his finger in my mouth and made me taste myself. He said that it was going to make the numbing all go away.
I did not report it. Reporting anything at basic training is close to impossible. You don’t have that trusting relationship with anybody. I felt gross. I felt disgusted. I felt like a slut for getting sexually aroused. I could not even take a shower until the evening.
I still think about all that happened. I read the other stories on here. I am sad to see that I am not the only one that been abused this way. Thank you for reading this. It helped me to be able to share my story.