Anonymous, United States Coast Guard Academy
My rapist is a star football player at the Coast Guard Academy. It happened one night in 2010 after a night of (underage) drinking. We made our way back to Chase Hall where he stumbled into my room, held a knife to my throat and raped me. My roommate was staying that night at the home of a man that she was dating. After it happened I went to my friend’s room, HM, and told her what happened. She asked if I was drinking and then threatened to report me for underage drinking. She said that she knows ****** and that she couldn’t imagine such a wonderful guy raping anybody. She said that since she felt that I was lying about the rape that she could no longer trust me.
In the upcoming weeks I was terrified that I would be called out and punished for underage drinking; a crime that the Academy took far more seriously than harassment or rape. HM gave me the cold shoulder while she was still friends with and hanging out with my rapist.
I left the Coast Guard Academy. Choosing to ditch my lifelong dreams of serving in the Coast Guard because of the way that one person treated me may make me sound weak but you have to had been there to understand how bad that it was for me. A fellow cadet raped me. He plays football and is very well liked by all. Almost daily I had to listen to what a wonderful person that my rapist is while in my head and at night in my nightmares I relive being raped by him. Whenever I have to hear or read about what a great person or football player that he was it was like a stab in my heart.
On facebook I am still friends with several at the Academy and see photos of my rapist partying it up with other women. It makes me wonder how many other women did he raped. How many of those women at the Academy are his victims? Perhaps I am the only one that was victimized by him which leaves me to wonder why he chose me. What did he see in me that made him feel that I was vulnerable?
I never reported my rape to the Coast Guard because of what HM said to me. I felt that if my good friend did not believe me that the Academy nor the Coast Guard would believe me. I was drinking that night as was he, which was in violation of several Coast Guard policy especially being under aged. I knew by hearing of other women that was assaulted that underage drinking is taken more seriously than rape.
In less than a year if all goes as planned my rapist would be an officer in the United States Coast Guard. My rapist would be in a leadership position possibly supervising women. My rapist belongs in prison but the United States Coast Guard is protecting him because he plays football.
post has been corrected from original post as per survivor’s request.