Hello. My name is Jane. I am a rape survivor. I am active duty in the United States Coast Guard and was raped October 17, 2010 when a shipmate climbed onto my rack while I was asleep and raped me. I found him ontop of me, with his hands over my mouth to prevent me from screaming.
I reported it up my chain of command and was met with disbelief. They felt that I was lying and had morning after remorse. Almost over night my name changed from Petty Office Doe to yo bitch you are a slut. I have been ostracized from my entire unit. I am no longer one of them. I was forbidden to attend the holiday party. I am exlcuded from all morale activities and can not join the rest of the crew in playing basketball. I am not allowed to attend all hands meetings. When I walk into a room everyone who is in there walks out. When I sit at a table during chow everyone else on the table gets up and leaves. Nobody talks to me even if they need to tell me something work-related leaving me in the dark of what is going on.
My perpetrator left the Coast Guard a month ago. His contract was up, signed his discharged papers and fled the country. I was told, and this is a LIE, that they can not continue on with the investigation because he is no longer in the Coast Guard. CGIS said, “we are not the Army. We can not force people to stay in past their contract agreement”. I am working with Panayiota who has said that this is not true and because of an active investigation that his contract should have been extended until the investigation was complete. However how can you fight the military? How can I tell CGIS that they were wrong and if I do they won’t believe me.
I have tried to call Shawn Wren, the Sexual Assault Prevention and Response coordinator and she does not return my phone calls. I called a JAG who in turn said that he can not defend me. I am not the criminal. I am not the bad guy. I am a rape victim that needs some help. Treating me like I am a criminal. Making me like I am not one of yours is not helping me heal. I was sent to 08 sessions of counseling by somebody that could not talk to me about the rape but was told by my command that I am an outcast and we worked on those issues. Everything was fine until I reported the rape and had everyone turned their back on me. I am not an outcast by choice. I want to talk to and be friends with my shipmates but they are staying away from me like I have a fatal contagious diesease. I am starting a new therapist next week thanks to Panayiota that is outside of the Coast Guard so I do not need help with that. I need help with having my shipmates treating me the way that they do. I tried to call the Chaplin and he ignored my phone calls. My mother called the Commandant’s office and it came back to my command and I was the one that was written up. I am also being med boarded out of service for adjustment disorder. I NEED HELP.
Please publish this. Please don’t use my real name I do not want to get in further trouble. Please if you are in the Coast Guard and can help me please contact panayiota who would forward me the information. I wrote to the Congress today as well. I don’t know what else to do. What have I done wrong?